Thursday, April 30, 2009
Astonish by the performance of weiting in her very own movie clip. Her expressions and emotions were shocking as she's very quiet during class.
Told by FaFa and rauhda not to lose weight anymore scared that body's size drop but face still remain the same. - _ -"
Stupid JieQin. Run away from Cam.
Eating Egg tart. No time the whole day.
Rush.
Still Rush.
Monday, April 27, 2009
This is exactly what I wrote for the title.
For those people in the 4 new classes I had which I have known them from previous semester, they can understand me. For those who don't know me, treat me like some superior forcing them to work diligently. The words I intended to spoke perhaps to them sounds like an order. But one thing good is we always delivered quality work like today's digital and imaging module.
Seriously speaking, you guys want me to complain to my mother for giving me this seriously serious face? Rofl, I can't smile as always.
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Today around 1 plus in the afternoon, anger surged me about the comment" miss, how much you're charging" towards hf,xh. In fit of anger, I went to online reporting the issue.
To my dismay, they called me up and requested to meet me and the both girls at AMK station either today or tomorrow. I called up hf with guiltiness about the matter. Went asap to her house, watch a little of jackie chan's oldies and went off together heading to the station.
We had to make statements and went into the room with the guy on call with me previously. From there, I can see many uncertainty that xh did not want any more trouble. For me, I knew I had did something without asking for opinions and did something without thinking twice and letting my rage get the better of me.
After that, I get something valuable from the lesson.
First and foremost, start thinking twice when anger rages in.
Stop my mind in black & White, start going in the grey area.
During 2d game and design module, sitting next to mint, got a call from hui fang, or perhaps i called her, she wants to watch magique. I went to the cathay website and see it's synopsis. First impression has told me this would be a artistic savvy film something like Billy ellilot. Surprisely, I didn't know that she would like this genre of films.
For me, I do love it as every individual section of the film contains a meaning to and fro. Every incident, every occasion or even the slightest breath taken could mean something. That's how facinating in these genres of film.
As usual, we went to orchard to catch the movie at The Cathay. Went to the same Jap food court and I still ate the vege pancake. Hf ordered Omelette rice, Xh ordered rice in a stone bowl which resembled korean dishes, Yang ordered the first meal I had there.
After the movie, we waited 45 mins for the bus to come by. Ain't splurging on taxi. I turned in first, dying of fatigue while xh and hf watched mr bean before their beauty sleep.
Next morning, I woke up freaking early. Well, it has been a habit to wake up before 9. I waited for them to wake up, instead of me forcefully pull them out of their dreams. 12 30, ate our lunch which 2nd uncle bought for us, and we began to prepare going out collect medicine for the bunnies, then to take passport photos and to buying items to make the cake.
Talking about baking a cake, I'm a garanteed loser for this. Thanks to hf, xh the cake was moulded like a cake. During the process of making the cake's appearance hf thinks that xh made the top of the cake unpleasantly distorted. I felt there was going to be another argument and I'm paranoidly afraid of such things to happen and quickly try to distract them to the show about Jack Neo talking about his life.
Actually, making the cake out has already please my goal fittingly. Seriously to say, the cake is as though the two of them make themselves. What I did was insufficently enough; I did only the cake base.
Went to play basketball later and saw xh was wearing singlet. But didn't care much since she's not playing anyway. Played with the two guys saw previously, lost but enjoyed. Played with the monks, got thrashed but happily ate the defeat. Later, a group of uncivilised barbarians came and did something atrocious.
This obese guy say something to either hf, xh and even both of them. Translated in english, he said" Miss, how much are you charging?" While playing with them, I was staring daggers at them and they should know I'm doing it. Of course, I won't be irrational to have a fight with them as that is purely dumb. Guess what? I've send a letter to the police via online to keep a lookout for them around that avenue. Haha, this is so vicious of me. I only do things eye for a eye. Touch the people around me, you will get paid in full sum.
Went home to celebrate with my mother. She's in tear knowing I "baked" the cake. The first woman I ever made food for. Elated I am.
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Seems like it's happening again. Oh well, I don't actually mind. You believe who I am, that that's me. You believe something from other people's mouth than mine, so that's me.
I won't bother to explain. It would seems I'm trying to argue my way out. Anyway, no trust then I guess no talk then. Rumors are destructive I guess.
Meet Fifi, sharkina, ace and kong sing for fyp. Script need to redo.
Later went to Bishan. Reach slightly early. Went walk around Junction 8. Then met up with hf,xh for badminton. Sweat profusely. The blisters on my hands cause a drop of my racket. Drop once, not to drop again.
(Blisters occured due to training inclined pull up. Forced by Cliston. Thanks to him, he's pushing me to limit)
Went to supermarket. Unexpectly, hf and xh gonna cook. I was happy sure enough as I rarely eat homecooked food nowadays.
hf cook marinated wings and taste superb, juicy and succulent, rice was slightly wet but I liked it anyway. xh cooked vegetables with mushroom and omelette. Vege still preserves a little crispyness and mushrooms were not too squishy.
Omelette was special. It tastes sweet and I like it sweet instead of salty which my mum hates sugar in dishes.
I felt guilty about causing them to fall ill. One had fever, one had flu. They still had to cook food.
Especially hf, hates eating medicine I guess. Like cliston too, scared immunity would fall.
Went home.
Perhaps these two girls are the strongest of whoever I have known.
Nope, still got my mum ranking number 1. Rofl.
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Ice cream I had at liquid Kitchen.
We were waiting for the call by the auntie at LiquidKitchen.
Drumlets that ordered repeatedly by Hui Fang.
This is the dinner we went. Humid weather.
Monday, April 20, 2009
I felt weird seeing new faces and felt the stress of targeting A for every single lesson I had or in the eminent future.
Miss the times I had fun with huifang, xh, and yang. Tired and stress up. Don't intend to put any effort in making new friends. Waste of my thoughts only.
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Finally, from 115 to 95, 95 to 90, 90 to 89. I'm having severe backache for no reason. It's either someone whacks me during my sleep, or I strained my back from gym sessions which I don't recall doing any back weight training.
Current time now is 930. Thou pain, I decide to go for a jog downstairs my park. I cannot give up now. 80 is a must. Sprayed some pain killer on my back. I left with 5 days before school reopens.
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Sometimes I hoped the things my cousin said was ain't real. I recalled the happy moments of eating steamboat together on Sunday, april 12 around 7. I'm seriously at a loss to do anything. Sometimes I do hope someone to ease my burden but I guess I'm on my own. I can't talk about it to my little brother, my sister though she knows but kinda busy with her matters of her own. She's been in Polytechnic for just two days.
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Jog finish and slack at the fitness corner, lay on the bench and look into the skies.
signed off
Alvin Soh
Well, now I have a companion who is seeking to slim down. My dear cousin, hf. Whenever I felt like eating, I would think twice and remember someone out there is also trying very hard to not overeat. My motivation became twice as much then ever before. Well, its nice to have someone slimming down at the same time. I find it gratifying.
I will go down. That's final. Let's say 2 mths? I shall see the results.
These past holidays, in fact I'm sincerely grateful to hf, xh to listen my worries and everything. Kinda relieve some of my burden. Shall not trouble them anymore as kinda embarrassing and felt like giving them more trouble.
In the coming new semester, I have many troubles to carry.
1. Lost weight till 80kg. I consulted some people who jogged for 12 minutes and most of them are at a weight of 80kg + - .
2. Go gym as regularly and train the machines which help to stress muscles for the Napfa test.
3. Pull my grades to 3.5.
4. Pull to a new level with my relationship towards my siblings and my mum.
I wished I had a eighth day.
Father bought me chicken rice. In fact, I felt really happy that he did this. I'm at a lost.
Perhaps they are some of my remaining friends which I cant face them without a mask, no need to worry about having thorns on my back, and just be myself. I'm still afraid of the same matter happened around year 1. Lesser friends, lesser pain. Same goes to raising pets. Don't raise, Don't pain.
Went to AMK hub to meet greg. He wants a new specs.
Shamir came along and we gave opinions about which specs is better. From AMK, we head over Bishan Park, took 410 to Junction 8. Head to Bishan Gym and found that place quite spacious. Around 9, we showered and went to Pastamania and have our late dinner.
Monday, April 13, 2009
I shared a bowl of Ba Chor mee with my Father.
I don't know why I did that. Perhaps I will not get a chance to do it again?
Stirring questions in me. Don't know how to ask my father. Just hope for the best.
Republic Polytechnic wants to get the year 3 enlistees to NS ready.
If I fail this Mock test, I will be driving crazy early morning to exercise before school starts.
Preliminary NAPFA Test from 4th - 15th May
I have roughly 20 days. First, get my weight down to prevent eminent pain during jogging. Secondly, increase my intensity than before.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Early in the morning, I woke up and got myself ready for the day( 11 to 2 supposedly to be at AMK singing karaoke) , follow by swimming then gym session near the complex. On the way to AMK in the train, got a call by Hf and her mom wants her to accompany her to eat with her sister. If I'm not wrong, that day was her mum's birthday. As usual, I tag along with the rest and head eating at a restaurant.
Most of the activities were canceled but I don't mind since it's my aunt's birthday. She's the priority of the day. Went to see my aunt's sister house and found her Jap-styled living room quite pleasantly looking. If there was a set of teapot with tea, the experience would be marvelous.
Later on went over to second aunt's pal, called feh feh I guess. Her business seems poor because the location was not well situated. Second aunt and her sister, start conversations with feh feh and I stared blankly into the cold air. Talking Cantonese; I'm quite a loser in Hokkien and now Cantonese which I barely know nuts about it.
Soon after reminiscing the times, went off, destination was aunt's home. Took a short rest and went out with 2nd aunt,hf,xh, yy to the prawn site located near some pubs and hawker's centre. That time was a gathering for our kins.
Play pool, lost to my elder cousin in pool badly, unable to fish a single prawn, head back to aunt's home.
Had plans for the next day, but canceled swimming due to unforeseen circumstances. Seems that the rabbits had mites on their fur. Priority comes in again and early in the morning after eating the ba chor mee which hf's father bought from AMK; knowing hf and xh don't like to eat food downstairs, set off soon to the animal's clinic.
Hot day but met a pleasant woman at the clinic and taught the girls useful knowledge about rabbits. Seems like laohu( the younger rabbit) almost had a heatstroke.
The girls went in with the rabbits and I sat outside hoping it's nothing to big deal. I saw this rabbit called Gaby Yap was seriously ill due to the mites. It's fur drop off as soon as it's hop around. His owners was sadden by it. This is another reminder to me not to raise a pet or have strong bonds to any other pet. Can't take the blow.
Hop on a taxi went straight back. Start to disinfect the house using hot water and dettol. Hope the mites are not surviving. I ate 4 bananas.
Went to see a movie with Dave and his gf called something. All of us got dressed up neat looking and all. Hf as usual, woar her polo T and styled her hair looking suave and healthy because of her tanned complexion. She would look beautiful after a period of hardship. I believe someday she would. Xh woar a blue top looking feminine with her long hair touching her shoulders. But, sometimes she can be very manly time to time. Yang and I got styled by a hairstylist called hf. Looking great. Head to town.
Watch fast and furious. Not nice. Don't bother to give ratings. Yawn.
Went back to hf's home and slept soundly thanks to asahi. Woke up in the morning because of how cold I was shivering and went home. Rest awhile and head for Jurong East Complex's gym. Had steamboat with family. Tired and fatigue.
Thursday, April 9, 2009
No offense, but this is the first time I meet china citizens giving racist comments to the only two Singaporeans in the court. They thought we could not understand with their accent. By the way, I'm used to it and heard every single detail of what were spoken.
On my team, though there were the other two china men, they play their game with gusto, instead of giving irrational comments. Halfway through, seeing one them came charging in, I went asap to give blockage his path to the net; he went through without care who was ahead of him and I was knockdown flat on floor. This is pure thick-headed. He got me starring daggers into his eyes and deep down he is for certain got the message by me.
As usual, sweat profusely. Not to worry, I do not stereotype anything by some small incidents. Just another day's life.
Male A has always been a model for me since young. He's the one whom taught me before giving judgment on people, judge yourself first. Female A+ taught Male A about this and then to me. I was a prefect during my primary school, a sheriff during secondary school; thanks to his words which sometimes quite harsh and cold. But, these made me a better person.
Something's now affecting my judgment on Male A. He did something out of the extraordinary which I cannot accept till now. I rather trust him than to doubt him. I'm unable to do something secretive and to prove I'm right that the things he done was wrong. I find myself disgusted if I did that.
One thing I've come to terms is that if he really did something that I judged if unforgivable, I will do what is suppose to do though by doing this I felt guilt ridden towards female A. Hai, sometimes to think of it will I find my other half somehow has the characteristics of female A?
I've been avoiding my friends and my kaki's nowadays. I don't have the heart to dilly dally somewhere; where I myself always encountered problems with friends.
I don't do well with friends, nothing goes well when I try to find the other half, nothing goes well in clinging to blood relations.
Signed off
Alvin Soh
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
I'm bothered by my family matters; bothered by how "friends" this word works. I chose to go out with them; they gave me a chance to put off my mask and be myself.
1. Went to pray for my ah gong and my aunt at the crematorium
2. Went to watch " Coming Soon" . All freak out. Xh cannot sleep on that day. I guess huifang and I slept like there was no tomorrow.
3. Went escape theme park and kept playing the log ride till all of us were wet. Yang was there but my sis was not able to make it. I kept falling on my butt. No more grips on my slippers. Had to go buy a new pair of slippers recommend by the herd. Oh, my toenail got pulled off from my flesh and kinda hard to heal till now.
4.Went to red dynasty and play paintball. Thought it's was pain but actually not. Gave me adrenaline rush when got hit; only made me more aggressive instead. Meet Dave; found him quite nice even though met him for the first time. Had fun as I did not need to think much about the matters burdening me. Got some bruises but the weirdest thing was it ain't hurt but swells?????
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Hearty Paws. Just watch today in dvd thanks to my cousin who lent it to me. As usual, I teared my left eye but not my right eye. Kinda weird, anyway the saddest part was when the dog Hearty decided to do the stamp and confirm thing with his owner.
Kinda hard for me to explain here so go catch it.
ANOTHER THING TO NOTE: DON'T RAISE A PET IF YOU CAN'T TAKE HIS/HER DEATH TO STRIDE.
Stupid JieQin. Run away from Cam.
Eating Egg tart. No time the whole day.
Rush.
Still Rush.
Ice cream I had at liquid Kitchen.
We were waiting for the call by the auntie at LiquidKitchen.
Drumlets that ordered repeatedly by Hui Fang.
This is the dinner we went. Humid weather.
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