Monday, July 27, 2009
My team mates/ brothers; Ace and Fifi. Everyone's not perfect. I have to like their bads and their virtues. I remembered when I was in year 1, I use to ostracize people who has a certain flaw such as not doing their work during team discussions.
I had to change, evolve and start to think two ways. For example, like Allen, he's ain't a workaholic, and seldom participate in group work. But, I try to find virtues to hide his weaknesses. He's a unparalleled talent in music, which awed me especially when he talks about it. His presence made me dumbfounded unlike during the days we study together.
I won't nitpick if anyone don't do their work in my team. I would try to look at different perspective of that individual, perhaps there's reason laying behind.
Ace; he's a material in editing, responsible and loyal to friends. But, one bad thing that I loathe is that he can be quite stubborn at times. I remembered one occasion about who's the leader of the team and he reacted quite strongly. I worried I would face this issue of who to be the leader of the FYP for the second semester. I would definitely vote myself, as I'm neutral and a HRM person. Verdell and Fifi sure enough go for the MV proposal while Ace towards fighting flim. That's when I come in, decide in details of the timeline, and when is when, meetings, and every details that may come in during and after production.
I'm a strict person when regard to work, friend's ties would be neglected seriously and only work is produced. Easy to get work done. Sure, joyous moods are needed but hope not leading to laziness.
Well, what to do? Everyone got their weaknesses exposed and we should embrace them.
Fifi; he knows me. His aloof aura makes him cool. Sometimes I do hope he can put more effort in the work he does. Of course, I'm just trying to be nitpick once again. I love to be a perfectionist. He's a music man and I like his passion to burn on this. People with dreams are beautiful, right? Yes he is.
Rationality : Do not make selections towards people; especially when making friends. Weaknesses is part of them, so is their virtues. Like one of the obnoxious people in our diploma, Jason, although he does not do his work, I may throw a few sarcastic comments, but I notice his efforts in going to the library and borrow a book and a cd on ActionScript 1.0. Kudos to this effort.
Saturday, July 25, 2009
These few weeks I resided in ace's house beautifying our FYP project. Well, it's part of our portfolio and we wish to do it well.
Sometimes I asked myself what I am chasing after.
Sometimes I asked myself what I want in life.
Sometimes I asked myself what I really need in life.
Sometimes I asked my heart and mind about the questions above.
And I get two answers that differ one another.
I... Kind of lost in my world... I want to relax and lay on the grains of sand, look at the vast blue sky, feel the salty breeze and enjoy all these with a companion... Won't that be the best thing you could do in the world?
Don't talk to me about monetary issues... Seek a wall and bang yourself.
Thursday, July 9, 2009
After these few months of inactivity in my blog, I came to realize friends that you chose to be with, hang around determines part of your advancement in life.
For example, dearest hf and xh. They have certainly brought my learning journey to a step further than before. Advices that I never glimpse before in my mind. Advices on how to tell my other friends certain problems and even problems of my own. These advices don't come easy from them; I felt that great advices comes by, by immersing oneself into the given situation to get the feel of it. I find them knowledgable in life and street-savvy.
Xh always like to say she accomplish not much in life; well deep in my heart she has already achieve great deals which I may not straight away shout "Hell, Yes I can!" Hf, she's definitely hotheaded sometimes, and her opinions can tilted to one side, but her gutso sway me off with admiration. She won't hesitate to speak free her mind which I like about her point. Xh should consider gaining this attribute of hers.
Till this day, I ain't sure why I felt so relief and elated when seeing them, its like my problems are nothing anymore, have fun and be a lark. Seems that they are going to work on the weekends, and when hf ask me what would I do if the manager ask me to work on weekends? Of course, I turned in to my human nature and said" No, I ain't working on weekends manager." Then I told her not to care about what I said as that sentence contains my selfishness. Hf asked what I meant by selfish? I kept quiet, not going to answer that question. I've learn that she needs money to pay her car lessons, etc so what more I can say? As for xh, she brings my mood high & mighty, especially when she's all happy and energetic. I can't be selfish right? Work is definitely more important than to rot with me on weekends.
I'm kinda straying off the given topic; thoughts to many issues has change and I began to think more positively in life. Like what raudha told me, "Hey, Alvin I find you less sighing and not so stress like the previous semester." I smiled with thoughts.
Besides them, a couple played a part. Well, should I say they taught me it ain't easy to maintain a relationship, know about give and take, understand each other? Know how to care for friends, be more forgiving rather than to suck up hatred?
Most of the time, I interact more with Clis & Cheryl in school. I would always tell about my days to them without any restrictions. I can shout to you in your face now that education is not all about what lies in life. Clis though not academic inclined, sometimes the advices he says to me is seriously profound but in his own broken English structure of sentences. Cheryl would spark my mind thinking more deeply than ever.
Sham, Greg, Gx, Scandal are the four musketeers who are the love/sex gurus. I must hand to them for being so "knowledgeable" in their respective expertise. They can cheer me up easily when I feel down and makes me laugh without any thoughts remaining in me. I feel free with them. Advices are seldom, but if it exists, I would give thoughts to credit it.
The "unknowns". You all know who you are. Advices which shared throughout each of our own problems. Its like going through our problems and solve it together. That's what so special about them.
A new friend I've make in class; Mint, she's very experienced in life. Perhaps its the job she has;tutoring kids that made her more mature, and the ups and down in her path craved her to be stronger than ever. Problems that are asked over are in turn returned with great thoughts.
I lost my wallet in the train upon reaching Jurong East. I came out not knowing till I start to slide my right hand to friction my backside, slap it to confirm and found out that my wallet is missing and still lying somewhere on the cabin. I went in the cabin and was squashed by the overcrowding passengers. Then, this kind soul offered to stand up and help to look for my wallet. Guess who is this kind soul? It's a Bangladesh ironically. My own race, and the other races were staring at me as though I'm hit with H1N1.
I went out hastily and seek the station master for help. I left my number and the key items in the wallet. He had excellent service attitude; I felt his sense of urgency to contact with the other station masters, and furthermore he consoled me at the very end.
Then, the retarded me, my mind went to the data bank and retrieve the lost data from the recycle bin. I left my wallet in my bag before the start of my understanding test. I felt guilty of troubling the station master. I'm not going to talk about this matter as I felt extremely stupid not able to recall issues like few minutes ago and I could remember things freaking long ago. Disastrous day indeed.
P.S. These two days, I saw two different Bangladeshis offered to two different old ladies for their own seats. Where's our own race standing now? I realize there was several black sheeps in the Bangladeshis which cause stereotyping. They are people with great courtesy, so please respect them. Of course, I once do saw a Bangladesh ogling at xh, I stared daggers at him and he did back off. Don't take this line into your consideration, readers but in the end you will right?
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