Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Let me think...
1. Don't talk about education. That's a must.
2. Recorder? I love the music lessons during primary school days. No worries but pleasing to ears.
3. Table tennis since primary, secondary school. Enjoy sweating with my bunch of KakiS!
4. Basketball and badminton as and when I feel free. Easy access to the venue and team bonding with friends.
5. Swimming since young and got Goldstar awarded by SSC. Gladly, it ended. Boring sport.
6. Dragonboat during poly times. Straining, tough but savor the burning calories in you.
7. Learn art from Mr Ye for ten long years. Though I loathe waking up early in the morning but thanks to him, he cultivated who am I to this day.
8. Learning in process of violin. My favorite
Been going out with Mich, Jamie, William, JJ and linus. Feels light and no burden at all. I forget all worries except one, but at the very least I can do what I want.
I finally get to embrace what it feels like to be free, and have fun like nobody's business. Sometimes I thought to myself, if I haven't grow up, would life been simpler? Yes, it would.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
I want to do what I want. My expressions and actions when is not sync to your thoughts, I fear your anger. I go out with your friends, my expression show this way, but you thought of another way. I feared to go out with you. I feared going out with your friends. I feared your smses. I feared your calls. I feared your voice. I feared your doubts. Leave me alone. I'll be a happier person.
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Seems that she did not want to have any contact with the one she rejected. I thought it all along it was my cousin that unhappy about it. Seems that all the incidents happened after the rejection, they thought I this and that, but I wasn't trying to mean that way. What to do when my tone and facial expression prove the other way.
Though everything seems solved on the surface, but best is I disappeared before her. Anyway my time getting hectic, and she would be happy too.
Monday, September 7, 2009
I chucked away the pages I had wrote about her.
I saw how awkward she felt, thus to prove that I'm not going to consider standing a chance again; wanting to start a new page being friends, then chuck it into a bin.
Hopes she understand.
Of course, I kept the pages of rejection to be part of my memories when I'm old.
Part and parcel in life.
Trust me; if not it's going to be awkward and I felt pressurized these few days with you. Sooner or later, I'll breakdown. Trust me alright. That's all.
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
I may ask her at the JUMP concert.
I want to ask.
I need the courage.
My obesity is the barrier again.
Give me the guts.
Strength and faith befall me please.
Not now.
Not tomorrow.
But, on Saturday the 5th.
Age : 20
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